Essay Anxiety Averted

It's a funny thing about the personal connection essay. I did it on "How to Become a Writer" because, believe it or not, I used to dream of becoming a writer for a living. Of course, now my writing is mediocre at best, but at a certain time of my life, I thought I was the next J.K Rowling. My 5th grade teacher told me I was a good writer, so I just ran with it from there. However, once I took creative writing class in 11th grade, writing became a chore. My creativity was forced in creative writing class, and as a result, I lost the will to write. I can barely write these blogs without falling asleep or wandering off to a social network mid sent.......... Sorry, okay I'm back. You see my point? I used to love writing! My 11th grade year I scored a perfect 600 on my writing SOL. Somewhere along the course of the end of my high school years, I began to practically despise writing. My novel has ceased to be worked on since summer, and I only succeeded in adding an extra chapter. making it about a 65,000 word novel that has reached writer's block and won't have a chance to be fixed because as stated in my last blog, I am extremely busy 24/7 and when I'm not busy, I'm sleeping or eating, which, in my case, is serious business. So I admire the main character of "How to Become a Writer" because she didn't give up on her passion for writing no matter how tough things got for her. I, on the other hand, have given up to an extent, and instead of even talking about my struggles of becoming a writer in my essay, I resorted to talking about my passion for music and my desire to be a female rapper/singer or famous actress. Of course, both things are true, but I completely overlooked the actual writing part. The way the story portrayed how to become a writer wasn't  the best at tempting me to become one, much less write about my becoming one. So my story changed completely and I went with what made a little more sense. How could I write about how to be come a writer if I myself failed in becoming one already? Exactly, this is best for all of us. Again, thanks for your time, and I hope your brain hasn't shut off from reading my blogs.